I watch and I wait as I compile 2.5 every night.
Anyway....

I'm just not in the habit of being a success.
It seems disillusioning these days to feel
the shadow of failure creeping over me.
With not much else to turn to I can see it's
creeping tendril fingers upon my back always ready
to strike it's death blow to my ego.

If my sense of self isn't aligned with others.
It happens to be aligned with the work that I do
or more like the work I think I can do.

And when the world awakens to remind me that I'm
not doing, what I'm imagining doing, I am jostled
from this hazy dream that I actually deserve any sort
of respect for anything.

My answer to all this...
My answer of course is to try harder.

Because I have not scratched but one inch of the
depth of my imagination. Even now, I'm more keenly
aware of how much deeper I may go to pull out
something different, something better, maybe even
something extraordinary.

I have to get in the habit of drilling deeper.

After all, if I was producing what I saw in my mind
and they still disagreed with it.
Than THAN I may consider changing my line of
work.

But till then... the world has yet to see my
full potential.

... Even I have yet to see it.