June 12, 2006 Monday Green Line


Green Line
Troble viewing? 
Try getting VLC
or with QuickTime  Xvid Codec 

I need to mention that the brief piano music in this movie
was by Commerical Applicant the sole producer of which is
Martin Harp.
I always love piano in things like this. Though that isn't the sound
track I was thinking of for the effect. Of course that wasn't
even the effect I wanted so I suppose all is fair anyway.


Hmmp. I'll just be thinking out loud here for a minute.  I want to
be able to accomplish a movie everyday but the task seems
impossible. The only way I can see it even remotely happening
is if I have some sort of production plan and schedule. And maybe
then something can happen. That's 'if' I can pull of the keeping
of such a thing.
I could break previously one idea into multiple blocks of content
in which I could make a lot of them on a few days of the week
and then just disperse them over the course of the week. If I get
ahead I could supply fillers. And I could even post a 'technical
difficulties clip' in case something goes really wrong.

All this hassle just to make sure I can keep a new 'something'
out every day so that my channel (via FireAnt) is kept humming.
Can I? Should I? .....

still thinking about it. Could try stuff out... at least.

I have seen a lot more of that wacky web stuff now that I had
like 200 or so movies downloaded to my computer last night.
And some of the stuff people come up with is really amazing.
My gosh. It's expanding my mind already.

12:14 AM
in a e mail from mom
"Chris, who taught you math?  Did you have a teacher?  Or did you
pretty much teach yourself?"

Hmmp good question.
I think the way I got to be the way I am today was a result of
a couple of things. One of two of the most notable was a fellow
whom commented on my suggestion while in Alaska. 

From as earlier as the days when I could work on that 60 in One
Electronic project lab I wanted to be able to do the math.
The first thing I sort of could do was Ohms law. V=IR
And as soon as I tried to go a little further I could not.
It was frustrating.
It was also frustrating to get to borrow Hillary's Physics book
and not know what the integrand symbols meant. The book
was basically useless to me since I could not manage to figure
those out.

I was def. exposed to math in the class room but it wasn't until
I began teaching myself calculus around the summer after my junior
year that I caught on a lot. 

I saw the 'lack of understanding' as a
road block for a lot of things I wanted and decided it might
be wise to figure it all out.

Gradually I developed better skills to the point where I
could immediately jump several steps ahead and pin point
an answer. the y = mx + b form I know like the back of my
hand. 

But it's the fact of proving new information that always
catches me. I mean catches my attention. It makes me want
to figure things out when i know I can preform all the right
steps. And after the CSP Independent project I got a lot of
practice figuring out the mathematics to things. 

... There hasn't been one teacher really. ...
I don't think I've typed this right. My head hurts at the
moment or else I would be more in depth. Perhaps I'll think
about it and get back to you.

5:01 PM
It turns out that other people agree that there are problems
with certain outspoken students in the class. Today was the
second time I left in such a state as to not be able
to eat before art. 

My back is so stiff after leaving that class. I was concentrating
really hard for a long time. And I think that's part of the reason
I always get headaches by the time I get home. I need to really
unwind after all that mess. The plaster didn't pour well at all
and what little idea I had for what I wanted to do didn't work
out well. I decided I wanted to work with very delicate things
but the problems with that are... well they are delicate things.

....
another idea
A lot of the things we find magical are things we don't fully understand.
That explains why learning the 'truth' about them makes them less
potent to us. I think the same could be said for love.
I think that when it because painfully obvious what is happening
on that schematic level of cause and effect than there won't be
a 'ohh love oh' response. It will be quantifyable, 'that phenomena that
occurs when.."
But that doesn't mean that it won't be any less of a powerful thing.
People will still fall, fight and die for love. 

...
Are some things best 'felt' rather than 'thought of' ?

Are some things best explored through emotion rather than intellectual debate?

...
10:39 PM
Alright, so I try to do this effect. But it's not how I wanted at all.
And to get what I really want will require some sneaky and hacky ways
of treating a blender project file. ... I know somehow I can get the
effect I want but right now it all really hates me.

I think that part of my headaches are coming from this pushing myself
to produce daily. Better lay off. Really. 

While my second attempt to fix the SF shot renders I'll be examining
sculptures to see how I can possibly answer these art questions.
Lucky for me all the thought and hard work of the last project paid off.
I got basically a perfect on my last art project. Phew. It's good to know
all that struggle was worth something.